Wanna know what’s insanity? Is that I’ve been cut free for 3 fucking years and when I have my really bad days it still comes back and I just wanna relapse and I don’t usually but tonight I feel really bad and no one gives a shit and I almost could. I feel so fucking alone and I’m almost in love again which sucks. Cuz he’s hooked on weed, and it’s his only downfall. And what a downfall to have. Because be uses it because he’s unhappy, which means I’m not making him happy. So I’m failing.
So…
What a way to feel…
I have no where to turn and no ones even gonna fucking see this and care. So fuck you too. Fuck this all. I’m so upset right now and I can’t fucking fix it; I need help, and this is as close as I’ll get to help.